Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Getting Lost?

I love holidays. Now that Bug is one, I am even more excited about them, introducing her to tradition, seeing everything through her eyes. It is joy, plain and simple.

I wrote this post two years ago. When I wrote it I didn't know I was about to be pregnant in like a second. My world was about to change. Everything was about to bubble over with meaning. It is hard to believe two years have passed. In some ways, it is even harder to believe only two years have past since I was that person. You hear a lot about keeping yourself, not getting "lost" in motherhood. This seems to be the current trend of thought in mothering. But I feel differently about change and transformation. Motherhood is transforming me into a person I want to be, a person I am proud of. I haven't lost myself. I am finding out who I am.

5 comments:

Existential Waitress said...

Experiencing the world through the eyes of your children is certainly joyful - again, it makes me understand life in a way I never did before I became a mother.

Jason B. said...

Did I ever tell you about last Thanksgiving? We went to upstate NY (NY-23rd congressional district) to visit with my dad, step-mother and my step-mother's family. Since Amelia doesn't eat any meat at all (except those Vandecamp's fish sticks that one time) my dad made her a tofurky. He didn't buy it from the store, no, he made it by blending some tofu and gravy and lots of salt. Then he shaped it with a turkey-shaped cookie cutter. It looked gross and it was disgustingly salty. Amelia wouldn't touch it. We asked him if he tried it while he was making it. Of course he looked away and said, "Uh, no."

No point except, love that baby!

Amie said...

Jason, LOL. Good Times indeed. Can I guess that you'll be staying put this year?

Suzanne said...

Love this post. Especially the part about being a parent helping you find yourself. Couldn't agree more!

Amie said...

Thanks Suzanne! And thanks for stopping by.